I know this is super random but David ran a lot, and I do not mean because he wanted that kind of lifestyle. He did not really have a choice, ya know? I can not sleep. I have tried many a times to write, but so much has been going on that there were too many rabbits to chase. So, I will do my best to catch you up. I started school and I have to write papers that have absolutely nothing about rabbit chasing in them and my professor lady would most likely make me put on shoes. I’m not rolling my eyes. I walked through some pretty tough stuff in the last few months. Those will not be mentioned, but just know that walking in freedom is a real thing. It is so possible. Also, I got engaged. I did. There is a lot I could say about him, but that is for another blog post full of information concerning the love of my life and well..butterflies.
For now, I will tell you this.. he loves the Lord more than he loves me. When he prays for us every night he tells God we want Him to be the center of our marriage. That is true. We do. We went many years without Him in the center of anything we know nothing is possible without Him. Our story.. the good, the bad, the ugly, the sad.. all of it is why we are who we are today. It’s a story of redemption. We are. Me and him. I am excited for this new season in my life!! And just what God is going to do with it.
Today, it hit me a little harder that I will be moving back to Pearl. I am excited, nervous, and a lot of sad all wrapped in one. Sometimes, well most of the time, the hardest thing is the right thing. It took a ton of praying, and a ton of waiting before I could be ok with saying I was going back. I trust the Lord, though, in all of it. Ok, I promise I will get back to David now!! I have never chased a real rabbit in real life, but if it is anything like my writing it has to be exhausting! David ran. He hid in caves. His son tried to take the throne. He ran some more, and hid in the wildernesses. I mean, Goliath was not his one and only giant- he faced many more.
Today in my reading, I read Psalm 18 which was written the day the Lord rescued him from Saul and all of his enemies. Suzan made sure to tell me ALL of his enemies. Maybe some one else needs to read that twice. I really love to read any Psalm when I know what was going on in the life of David at the time he wrote it. It makes it more personal in the moment. This one was super special to me because of the stuff I have walked through in the hard seasons. Maybe my Saul? Or giant? Or Absalom? Or whatever we would like to call it. Yes, we. We’re in this together!!
In all of David’s running for his life moments he never did forget the Lord was with him. Here is proof! He says in Psalm 18, “But in my distress I cried out to the Lord; yes, I prayed to my God for help. He heard me from his sanctuary; my cry to him reached his ears.” I am going to believe even in the scary times he knew God was still listening, because then he goes on to profess what the Lord did to rescue him from all the chaos! Go read it; God does not play! And no one was about to rain on his parade! (Diane taught me that. I say it all the time in the most random times.) Basically, you do not mess with a child of God, and my hope is that you find comfort in that truth.
I just can not help but think what if David did not trust the Lord in those times? The story would definitely be different. I think of the same for me right now in the changes ahead. I do not want to steal the pen of the next chapter He is writing, because it is uncomfortable and scary. I just want to take the next step of obedience, because hey if God needed to reach down from Heaven to get me out of my mess like David well and all the rest of the ones in the Bible..He so would. So why would I leave Him when He has never left me? I mean maybe one day I’ll answer that question but right now it leaves me a little speechless. Or fingerless? Because I’m not really speaking but I still have my fingers?? I don’t know how this happens every time in my writing, but I do know my professor lady would not approve. Still not rolling my eyes. This is who I am, and I am not ashamed.
So really what I am trying to say in all of this is I want to be like David. Well, maybe not all the way because I’m done running maybe not from snakes though. Oh, and bees. Ok, fine I’m done running from life and the hard. I want to be David in a way when he said this…
“God’s way is perfect. All the Lord’s promises prove true. He is a shield for all who look to him for protection. For who is God except the Lord? Who but our God is a solid rock? God arms me with strength, and he makes my way perfect. He makes me as surefooted as a deer, enabling me to stand on mountain heights. He trains my hands for battle; he strengthens my arm to draw a bronze bow. You have given me your shield of victory. Your right hand supports me; your help has made me great. You have made a wide path for my feet to keep them from slipping.” Psalms 18:30-36
Y’all. This. This is what I want to be able to say all the day long. That God’s way is perfect, His promises are true, and He has given me His shield of victory! I am going to work now. My feet ain’t slippin ladies and gentlemen. Also, notice how that verse does not mention shoes.
I rest my case